Maybe... three years is a long time to suddenly be outside of one. But... [She sighed and raked her hand through her hair.] This isn't changing today. I'm not going to do something so foolish today.

If I ask someone, I don't want them to feel like it is a rebound. I want... I want to be over this, to accept this first, and to be ok with myself. I need [She shuddered a little.] I need to get to where I feel ok with just being me.

Thank you, Eleanor.