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[notyourutopian]

Eleanor Lamb

Hello you've reached Eleanor Lamb's voicemail. I'd explain what's next but I can't imagine you don't know what to do at the beep.

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[notyourutopian]

That sounds like something out of a movie.
And you're not a retrospec employee.

Unless you are.

DUN DUN DUN.

No but seriously, just because you get her doesn't mean you are her.
I can figure out how teenagers on TV think.
I don't magically become them.

[true_noir]

Ok, perhaps that is a bit silly, but you have to admit that doing something outlandish to force a girl to remember something she'd forgotten and doing it successfully is a bit eerie considering all of this.

And you are right, save what is happening to my body, to my hair. I am still me, but they are trying very hard to make me feel and look like her, and I do not know that I want to become this girl. Not everything she did seems horrible, and some of it even seems justified, but there's so much about her I don't know.

Sorry, this has been getting much more confusing lately. I appreciate you helping, though.

[notyourutopian]

Everything about this is outlandish. I can't even remember the last time anything felt genuinely normal.
Or maybe weird is becoming normal.
That might be worse.

Let's look at it a different way.
You say you shot a girl in those memories.
Do you feel like someone who would shoot a girl?

[true_noir]

Not for the reasons in the vision, no. But if I were being brutally honest, I could see a time and a reason to do it, though I would like to think that self-defense or protecting someone else qualifies as a 'good reason.' The line feels more blurry than it used to, but I would still say that I would not do what she did.

It terrifies me, though, just how justified she felt in doing it. It absolutely had to happen, so that Kirika could remember, and she was so confident that she would remember.

[There had been more. Talk of executions, of Kirika being a killer herself, but those weren't what she wanted to focus on quite yet.]

[notyourutopian]

I don't mean kill someone in an emergency. Just...in general. Something you would do.

Kirika?

That's the other girl?

[true_noir]

Then no, I haven't.

[Admittedly, the other Chloe might have felt perfectly capable of killing, especially with that group of triad thugs, but she didn't feel murderous. She wasn't looking for another target. She just hadn't felt anything at all about it, other than the exhilaration of the fight.]

Yes that was the dark haired one's name, the one I kissed and shot. The other's was Mireille. I've since seen Altena in another vision too. She's a middle aged woman.

[notyourutopian]

Your visions are a lot more complicated than mine.
I'm always just running around fighting men in masks.
Or a little kid.

[true_noir]

I suppose that they are. There's only three people I see with any regularity, but there's all sorts of nuances I'm trying to catch, and it feels like I'm missing important pieces. It's very irritating. Not to mention deeply concerning at times for reasons such as tonight.

[notyourutopian]

Maybe you should start writing them down.
They might make more sense objectively like that.

[true_noir]

I might try doing that. It could help, at the very least, organize my thoughts. Get their names in one place, the few thoughts that I have and the things that clearly happened. We could sit down and talk, when I do that, if you don't mind.

[notyourutopian]

Okay. If you're sure.
There might be things you don't want to share.

[true_noir]

We've already shared that we've killed in our dreams, and you know about Kirika and I, or whatever that was. I think I've decided to let you in, Eleanor. I don't have many that are that close here, and I really need it right now. I'm sorry to foist all of this on you and the few that know me well.

[notyourutopian]

I can't argue with that!
I guess I've gotten used to just processing things on my own most of the time.
I assume everyone else does too.

[true_noir]

I think most people do to an extent, but this is beyond both of us alone, so it is probably best if we at least attempt to work together. Two heads can help us make better sense of this. I want to get past these constant moments of freaking out, not knowing what I'm seeing or becoming.

[notyourutopian]

I guess so.
You're right. Better than trying it alone.

Random question, but do you know Yukiko?

[true_noir]

Agreed, and we'll maybe have more success that way, or so I hope. No, I don't think we've ever met. A friend of yours, I take it?

[notyourutopian]

Yeah.
She's been dealing with this stuff too.

[true_noir]

Unfortunate to say the least. But, she has you, and that will hopefully be helpful, yes? Just don't overwork yourself saving all of us.

[notyourutopian]

Yeah...

Are you feeling better?
I should probably sleep, school tomorrow.

[true_noir]

Considerably. Go, get some rest. We will speak again soon, Eleanor. Thank you for the help tonight.

[notyourutopian]

Sure.
Goodnight Chloe.