notyourutopian | IC Contact: Recollé

[It was actually a phone message that came this time. Chloe's voice was haggard, and it sounded like she'd been crying for a while. There was a raw quality to it that was not present normally when she spoke. It was somewhere between resigned and defeated, and she was trying not to sound too desperate.]

Eleanor... can we talk for a minute. [The sound of shuffling.] I really need someone to talk to right now.

[And, even if she was slightly uncomfortable with talking to Eleanor about this because or certain, related issues... she was one of the people that Chloe trusted most.]

...Hello?

[Eleanor didn't get a lot of phone calls, really. Who used their phone like a phone anymore? But she answered anyway, and frowned as she heard Chloe's voice on the other end.]

Uh. Yeah, sure. Just gimme a second, alright?

[There's the sound of muffled talking with her hand over the mic, and then footsteps and a door closing before she returns.]

Okay, sorry about that. What's going on? Are you alright?

[She waited patiently, listening to the sounds muffled over the phone. Once the door closed and Eleanor spoke up again, she sighed and reached up to press the palm of her hand to her forehead, settling against the wall and sliding down. It was an easier position to be in right then.]

No. Simone broke up with me today. [She fought back a sob. She'd been doing that enough lately.] I'm... not sure what to do right now. We were together so long.

Oh!

[Well Eleanor hadn't been expecting that. Chloe didn't talk about her girlfriend much, but never had she gotten the impression anything was wrong. She was quiet for a moment, sitting down on the edge of her bed. What was she supposed to say.]

...I'm sorry. [Okay that worked.]
...What happened?

[Yep, that definitely worked, and she was always the sort to try and sugar coat what was going on in that part of her life. Everything was fine, nothing to see here, only no, no it wasn't. She struggled a bit to reply before managing to speak without crumbling again.]

We... had a bit of a fight after the last time I called, stressed out because of one of these hallucinations. She said we had grown apart, and decided to end things... start a new chapter.

Oh. [Eleanor couldn't imagine a long distance relationship like that, but the longest relationship she'd ever had, period, was about two months so. Yeah.]

I'm sorry. Really. You said it had been a long time since you'd seen her though, right? I mean...I suppose I can understand...

[She sighed, the sound of slumping against something audible before she spoke again.]

We used skype a lot, so we saw each other... but our worlds have been spreading farther the last six months. It's been more and more stressful. I'm sad... It hurts, but I can't be mad at her for making the choice. [She sighed and gripped her forehead.]

And it's just like her to be this ... final about it. I just don't know what to do right now.

[Eleanor was supposed to have good advice here wasn't she. Well shit. She's quiet as Chloe talks, trying to figure out what she should say.]

I don't think there's much you can do, Chloe.

[No Eleanor that's not it.]

I mean, uh. I don't know, I'm bloody useless for advice considering my only long-term boyfriend was like, a few months but just...focus on other stuff, I guess?

You're right. I should... try to give myself a little rest. I don't think I'm really good at being single anymore, but... not yet. Get my mind off of it for a few weeks and try to see if I'm ready.

[She raked her fingers through her hair.] I just feel lost, and I don't want to be alone... and losing her makes me know how alone I felt, is all. I feel a little bad for even thinking of that... but you already know my heart's been wandering lately. It kind of makes it sting more, in a way.

Being single isn't that hard. [Eleanor snickered.] Trust me.

[She sighed.]

Well, maybe it's...I hesitate to say a good thing, but...a change. Sometimes change feels terrible but works out in the long run. Even if we don't enjoy it at the time.

Maybe... three years is a long time to suddenly be outside of one. But... [She sighed and raked her hand through her hair.] This isn't changing today. I'm not going to do something so foolish today.

If I ask someone, I don't want them to feel like it is a rebound. I want... I want to be over this, to accept this first, and to be ok with myself. I need [She shuddered a little.] I need to get to where I feel ok with just being me.

Thank you, Eleanor.

Probably helps to take some time for you, you know? You might discover you like a bit of solitude. I know I do.

[There's a bit of an audible shrug there.]

Hey, sure. I can do reassuring when I have to.

I think I'm going to get some rest. I'll give you a call again soon. Hopefully for better reasons, ok? Have a good night, Eleanor.

Yeah, sure. Call me if you need anything, alright?

Night Chloe.

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